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Baby Steps: Do you believe?

Posted September 9, 2010

I definitely feel there is more going on in this world than what meets the eye.

Call it being superstitious; call it karma; call it whatever you like. This week I think I might’ve interrupted the course of the universe by one seemingly insignificant action…

Before I tell my story let me preface by saying: I absolutely know this is over thinking things. However, I believe there are probably others out there who might identify with losing yourself – if only for a moment – in thoughts like these. It’s not something that consumes me. More like a fleeting instant that I thought might be interesting to share.

So here’s the punch line:

This week – I got antsy – and I chopped my hair off. I mean I totally hacked it. It went from about halfway down my back (when flat-ironed) to above my chin. In fact, I’ve never had my hair this short before. What concerns me is…I told several people I wouldn’t cut my hair until I got pregnant.

I realize all of that changed when we got our first test results a few months back. But does that really matter? Part of me feels like I broke a promise. Even one of my friends asked about it on Facebook (we haven’t seen each other in a while). After all, aren’t there consequences when you break a promise?

In the end, I made the conscious decision to cut my hair despite that “promise.” My saving grace is, I had enough to donate to Locks of Love. Maybe I’ve upset the gods, but karma is on my side?

Time will tell…

Christine is an associate producer at WRAL-TV, which includes research for 5 On Your Side and producing the 10 p.m. weekend newscasts on Fox50. She lives with her husband and three dogs. Christine is chronicling her experience as she and her husband struggle with infertility.


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  • m2bennett Sep 13, 2010

    Karma. Superstition. Luck. Love. The human condition. As you said in an earlier blog, you've married your best friend so the two of you already make a great family.

    So do you still want a new flat iron for Christmas?

  • boatrokr Sep 10, 2010

    I know it's easier said than done, but don't second-guess yourself. It's just another torture on this journey.

    My mind played constant games....if I walked to work a certain way I'd get pregnant, maybe this is punishment for something I've done in life, if I eat certain foods, maybe I shouldn't have used BC pills, how about if I take time off work and meditate....

    Do what feels right for you, and don't look back. remember to take time for yourself.

  • snowl Sep 10, 2010

    I think woman cut or change their hairstyles for all kinds of reasons, marriage, divorce, birth, illness, or just's only hair, it'll grow back! Now have you thought about getting a tattoo?...ur just kidding! "don't worry, be happy".

  • Highly Caffeinated Sep 10, 2010

    Good for you! I remember the 16 MNs that we struggled w/infertility, and I lived my life "on hold" with so many things planned for once we got pregnant. I found infertility to so hard because it felt like the struggle defined me. This is a very challenging time, but my advice would be to not make things dependant upon getting pregnant - it only adds more pressure and angst to an already difficult time for you both! Good luck to you - I'm keeping my fingers crossed.

  • lwilhelm1 Sep 9, 2010

    Give yourself a break. You are allowed to change your mind, things change.
    You didn't break any "cosmic" laws or hurt anyone.