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to mission or not ?

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So I've decided I'm going to on a mission sometime next year. This is a really big deal since my view on other countries used to be " Oh well, sink or swim on your own "

I'm going to share the journey of the mind and heart so I hope you have the patience to stick with this blog =)

I grew up a daughter of a steel worker so buying American was VERY important to our household. I was brought up you do for yourself, you pay your own bills and you feed your kids and NOT the government. All mothers stayed home in our neighnorhood and no one was divorced.

I grew up in a middle class neighborhood even though I didn't have things like the other kids, barbie, expensive dolls , atari, reebok or guess jeans but my parents showered up with love and affection and doing things together as a family like camping, going to the meusums, history and art.

Then something happened in my early teens, we are the world became a sensation.

This is one of the most vivid memories I have in my life of speaking my mind and feeling like an outsider. I was in the 7th grade and we were in history class and someone gave a report on why we had to donate to the we are the world cause. I must've rolled my eyes cause my teacher called on me and asked if I had an opinion. I shyly said no, but she reassured me that it's good to hear all sides. So I walked up to the little podium, my hands touched the side of the podium

All eyes were upon me, most of the kids were the ones who made fun of me anyway cause I didn't have cool clothes and my parents dressed me oddly and had VERY different views of the world.

I remember saying, " We are not obligated to help them. They breed like roaches then only to watch their children die by the time they are 5 or 7 yrs old and they continue to do this.

I say we can give them our money and food when they learn to take birth control and control themselves. I remember when the steel mill was on strike 9 yrs ago, I don't remember any of you coming to our house to drop food off or helping to pay our bills ( some of their parents who got laid off got on welfare and some of the kids had parents with proffessional jobs ) when we ate mac n cheese for 2 weeks straight. We almost didn't have a christmas tree and we had one gift under the tree that we had to share ( my sister and I ) some of your parents got on welfare and got lazy, my dad got a job as garbage man cause that's what men do to provide for their familes, they do what it takes.

The same people in this class who are crying we need to help these poor people in Africa are the same ones who everyday who pick on me for not having nice clothes and pick on others who are poorer than they are, I refuse to help anyone.

YES I remember everything I said cause my teacher sent a note home to my parents that I had debated a point and she was proud of me for standing up for my thoughts since I was so shy about everything.

My views on third world countries continued and even here in America , my views were the same, cant feed em, dont have them, NO ONE else should pay for that. Especially when I started making my own money and working hard.

3 weeks ago at church we started a project to make money to buy some buildings and turn into a hospital and a residence for the hospital workers in Haiti

. There was this story of a pregnant woman that came to one of the medical stops ( our church is a part of ) to deliver her baby only to find out that baby had died inside and the woman never knew. They told her she needed to go to a real hospital, they carried her on a stretcher into the junlge to never be heard from again.

That day I thought to myself, these women never get to hear their babys heartbeat, heck they don't even know if their baby dies inside the womb. How much we take for granted that we can be at the dr within minutes and have ourselves, our kids and unborn babies checked for their health.

No one ever asked to be born where they are, we should be thankful we are born here and not in some hut where our chance of dying by the time we are 5 yrs old and have to eat dirt to fill our stomachs.

Im turning my attention to the other countries instead of America to help Americans and this is why, Mcdonalds is hiring, NO ONE is above it and i should know cause I've done it. The poorest people in this country is still the richest compared to the other poor of other countries. Also every year our church holds this thing where members of the congregation brings clothes , and toys and people come and get stuff for free or bring stuff and take what they need BUT last year the ones who came cleaned everything out in 30 minutes and stole 2 microwaves and several high chairs that actually belonged to our church. See you give to the so called needy here, they will still steal from you.

I know I will get some backlash from this blog, I love this country but people can get jobs here , they just think they are to good to do some of them.

I want to get out of the comfort zone that I'm used to and experience another side of the world.

Has anyone here gone on a mission ?

and yes I have insomnia tonight