Every year, when I write my first blog, I search for some wisdom to impart, not just to you, my readers, but to my inner voice. I try to quell the storm that brews in all of us as we cross the threshold into another 365 days.
The truth is that while 2016 was a year of some triumphs, it was also, like any other year, a year of obstacles, difficulties and regrets. But as I reconcile the list and try to group each into neat little columns, one thing always stands out. No matter what we did in the previous year, we always feel like we didn’t do enough.
There are the big things: I didn’t write enough, I didn’t balance parenting and work well enough, I didn’t do enough for my community, I didn’t dream enough and figure out what’s on the other side of the proverbial mountain.
And then there are the little things: I didn’t sleep enough, I didn’t drink enough water, I didn’t read enough …
It’s easy for us to look at our lives year after year and think that we just didn’t do enough, that we can do better, that we should do better. But maybe that’s not the most productive outlook.
Maybe it’s about telling our inner voice that we are good enough, that we did do enough, that we did the best we could. Maybe that’s the best way to approach the new year.
So, my goal for 2017 is to be enough of everything that I am, to not second guess myself so much, to understand that the other side of the mountain comes only when you believe in yourself, when you believe that you truly are enough …
Amanda is the mom of two, a reporter for WRAL-TV and the author of several books including some on motherhood. Find her here on Mondays.